Loving Him

So i had a dream yesterday night. In the midst of that crazy dream, I had a boyfriend/husband and at a point of time of affection, I brought his arm up to me and hugged it and kissed his hand.
Yap..I know its something I really don't feel comfortable mentioning but I do because of my conversation with God.
Despite it being just a dream, I felt affection and love stiring in mt. Like how one could actually physically cry from their dream, I felt the love...for a fictitious guy in my dream of course. But I reckon that the reason why I can feel this is because Ive had the past experience of feeling that way and my body and mind has rememebred it and how it could possibly feel.
Anyway, as I walked to school today, I thought about it and as I thought of that incident, my heart felt that same love. especially as I was about to kiss his hand...
Then I started to ask God when I would ever have someone to love like that. To feel that kind of love for real. Because till I find that person, I can never feel the full extent of that..unlike in the dream...
God asked:" how about me?" Do you love me that much to feel such affection? Am I not worth that much to you? What does it feel to love me with all your heart? How do you think I feel when I love you?
And I recalled how Mary came, washed His feet, poured perfume on His feet and dried it with her hair. All this done with adoration for Him.
Could I do that? Would I feel as much love as her when I do that? Does she feel that kind of love when she did that?
Then the bigger question came from God: What would happen if I gave you such a person? What would happen to our relationship then..if you were to love him that much? Who would you adore more?
And I realized that He's right. That I need to know Him more and develop a stronger relatinoship with Him before Im good to have someone in my life.

Not to say that God means to keep me single till i gain that..but it also shows how much more I need to be trained or learn to get to a stable relationship with God.

I want to reach the point of adoration of God. Having positive expectation of God

God Bless